I think it was already more than 12 years ago, first time I met you. Then meet you again several months later in Senior High School. I just admire you much. You were very smart, yeaa, smart boy is irresistible :).
Time flies and we have our own life. You with yours, and I with mine. I think it was five years ago I had a deep feeling for you. We met because we help each other. You are one of my best friends, for a boy, you are my best friend. I think I always told you all my stories, except my romantic because you never ask me (and why you just must ask me, hehhehe). Even I never know who I am for you, but I do believe you are my best friend.
Talking to you by WhatsApp or Twitter was never be boring for me. You have many stories that make me interest so much. Chatting with you is a great time for me. If I was asked about the time that I wanna come back, I think I want to go back to Jogja, when you were finding some job. I think I lost my chance, to say something, or give you some code about my feeling. I just a person who never tell my story, or my feeling if someone doesn't ask me first. Sometimes, I think I lost my moment when you start to say something serious (until now, I still in doubt, is it just my feeling or that is what really happen) But, it's okay, I see you have a good life now, and me too.
I praise for both of us to have a great time, you'll find yours, and I'll find mine. You will find someone who you want to spend the rest of your life. Honestly say, I ever have a dream if you will accompany me to continue my doctoral degree, wherever but it is not in Indonesia. But, I believe that everyone has a dream that never comes true right :). The best dream will be caught and be a reality. Even you are not my best reality, at least I ever have you as my best dream to catch.
I think its time for me to not hoping you anymore. I think you are on your best time now, and I realize that I am not your type to spend your life with. I still admire you. I also want to say sorry that I ever read your inbox mail. I found that you already find someone in Jakarta even you are done now with her (I think, because you asked me about English thing to me, and I know her English is amazing). And I hope you success with someone who makes you be a fans of Muenchen :). Ah, if you know, my ability to search any information and analyze something as good as FBI hehehe.
At last, thank you for the memories and be such a great friend to me all this time, in my hardest time and my best time. You are still one of my best friends. I just need to erase this feeling, the hoping of you to choose me :)) All the best for you and me :D
