THAT DREAM IS BACK

I'm an ordinary person, sometimes feel I can fly and ever feel that I'm in the darkest place. yesterday I feel so bad. Everything run so fast and I still can't follow this. IAs we know that one thing that we can't handle in this world is a change. everybody always change in every tiny time, and that happen to me.

I remember several month ago when my mom asked me to join in regular social gathering whose members contribute to and take turns at winning an aggregate sum of money. the money that I can get is quite big for a student like me. I said to my mom that it would be take a long time to pay back all of the money that I would get. But, my mom said "why? 4 years later you will be in abroad?" I never think that my mom has a big hope for me to continue my study in abroad. and as long as I do my job as a student, I think that is not a simple thing to continue my study abroad. My TOEFL score is quite low, my skill in chemistry just can pass the exam. That's like I must hike the highest mountain in the world. Tha's very hurt me when i feel I can't make my parent happy. 

yesterday, as usual, facebook is my daily life. allmost everyday I open my facebook. And yesterday I added one of my older siste who study in Australia to get her P.hD. wowowowo,, I saw herpicture in many background of australia. That's very wonderful. I see that it will be something new to be like her. Go to the other work ang communicate with definitely different people. After that, I feel that I'm not too late to prepare everything to reach my dream. Go abroad, reach my dream, and make my parent happy. I still can't pay back what all of my parent have given to me. and I thing it is one of many way that I can make my parent cry. Crying of me because of my success.

Ya Allah, You're the greatest one.everything is in your controll. I know tha You will be get the best for me. I hope that one day I can make my parent proud of me. :D